The Annoying Thing Called Patience.

Ever wake up mad at the world? I think we all have those days and this is definitely one of them for me. I can usually count on Sundays to rejuvenate me and put me at ease, but today I woke up with angry vengeance for no reason. 

I was mad that my family is living in an apartment. I was mad that I don't have a job that makes money and helps with our financial situation and goals. I was mad that I'm so far away from my parents and brothers. I was mad that I don't have a car during this time to, at least, experience the city, I feel stuck in, with my kids. I was just mad at everything! 

I escaped, to Starbucks of all places. I used to be so anti-Starbucks. I hate how "trendy" it is to be carrying your Starbucks coffee, along with your Prada purse. It's practically everything I don't want to stand for. But the actual coffee shop, with adults sitting in it, conversing, drinking their coffee, reading their books, and perhaps chasing their dreams, makes me happy. I like being around people and Starbucks does create a calm atmosphere to be in. So for that, I commend you Starbucks! 

And here I sit. In Starbucks, with my medium sized (whatever that's called in this world, I cannot remember) Vanilla Latte and the word patience is ringing in my head over and over and over again. Patience is a virtue is an understatement! Patience is the freaking key to almost everything, I'm learning. How many people do you know that have had some AMAZING idea, but once it's not recognized instantaneously, they drop it and move towards their next brilliant idea? How many inventions are piled up in people's garages? How many books laying around never sent off to the publishers? 

We need patience. You put in the work, you send it out there, and then instead of reaping the benefits, you know what you do, you keep on working. Every, single day, with focused attention. You work and work and work and be patient, because eventually, when the time is right, whatever you're focused on will blossom and you will reap the benefits. It doesn't happen on our time though, it happens when it's supposed to happen. 

I'm learning to maintain the focus. I am one of those people that gets about 5 new ideas every single day and it's confusing, because I can see every single one of them working out, being successful, and helping people, but none of them are going to come to life if I don't narrow it down and figure out what the heck I'm doing. 

So I've narrowed it down to this; writing. This year, I'm going to simply, write. I'm going to write my little heart out, because that's what my heart wants to do. I will write all my ideas down, but I'm not pursuing them. The only thing I'm pursuing with reckless abandon is writing. Who knows what will come of it, maybe nothing, but I will know that I was patient with one thing and worked endlessly towards it. 

So now, I am patient, well learning to be patient. Probably the hardest lesson I'm learning. I will be patient and know, my dream house is coming, my family car is coming, my mom, dad, and brothers will be closer one day, and I will make money doing what I love when the time is right. All we can do is work hard and have patience.

So cheers, with my Starbucks coffee, to having the patience to pursue our dreams, one at a time!